On the middle of the road.

Last day in Chennai !

Overwhleming !

Last day in Chennai.

Now when I came in here, was never sure that this would happen – this heart will feel so attached to this sultry whether, this freind, who is no less than a brother at this point of time, a so very special person & a very good and honest Manager, who has tried to change my life by giving me whatever I could possibly need to do it.

At this point, I would like to say the same old stuff that you would have either read or heard by someone, life goes on – nothing stops… me working here.. my friend working at some place.. the person who could have been more than a soul-mate, who thinks I am a literally crazy or a manic or something very similar to that – Everyone.
I feel like .. a very lonely person at this point of time.. not because I have left some important people, but because I could not do anything for them. Its so so very sad ….

There is one thing that we all have different, for me that is my desperation, and unfortunately thats what was the reason why I lost the possibly most important of my life. The person for whom I could have challenged the whole world, the god and the whole existence. If she was by my side.. I would have really changed the world. I know this sounds crazy or a teenage infatuation.. but this is the way I am. Unfortunately I have to leave it and move on..

When you say that you love someone, and you really mean it- you cant really define that feeling, thats what I feel right now. Not that I had all the bad things or situations in life, I had good people too, but I feel I wanted more.. I had great expectations with myself and especially with people. Having great expectations with people you barely know was also a kind of problem that I have, however, with time I will learn.

I went to all the places which I have felt associated with -may it be the table in City Center Mall, may it be the Elliots Beach, may it be a house where I had never been, where I could have been, unfortunately each day tests me, tests me not to perform, it tests me for life and death.

Sometimes I think about life as a journey, somtimes we think of it as a responsibility, sometimes as some religious rebirth concept- that takes finally us to the eternity. But the fact lies that, in every specific moment, at every speck of time, we are what we are in the moment. These moments when weived together make something like a series of events and that again has a reason.

When we are in Love – these reasons narrow down to just 1 person, that person guides or becomes the central part of all the discussions, meanings and anything possible thing that tells us what life really is.